The good stuff...

When I think about the things in life that make me smile, there really are not  any big, big things - they are truly the little things.  The little things like... someone looking at you and your heart melting, the butterflies when you see that someone special, the silly grin on your face when that special someone's name pops up on your phone, a big hug that makes you forget anything else, a simple "I love you"... these are the things I consider "the good stuff."   These are the things for me, that make all the bad things and the tough times worth it.  You see, I am not a materialistic person -  I am not motivated by money and things.  I have had it all, lost it all and I can honestly say, even when you THINK you have it all, normally it is the little things that are missing and you realize you really have nothing.  This is why, no matter what the circumstances... I know I am truly blessed and my life is filled with "the good stuff."

Very blessed

I'm not even sure where to begin, the last 10 days for me have been almost perfect.  It started last Friday, when I went to Center Hill to meet my sorority sisters for our lake weekend.  Yes, we are in our 40's... yes, we still act like we are in our 20's when we get together.   We have all come from different backgrounds, and different walks of life - yet, we all love each other dearly.  This is the most unjudgemental group of women.  We have been through, marriages, divorces, births and deaths.. we love each other unconditionally.  I am truly convinced when God put us together 20+ years ago, He knew we would need each other later in life.  I can honestly say, my life is better because of these women! 

Next on the list, is my crazy life.  Have you ever had one of those days, where when you wake up you simply want to pull the covers back over your head and go to bed?  Do you ever wonder exactly where you stand with someone?  Wonder exactly what their feeling are?  Well, anyone who knows me knows that I have lots of questions - I am one question asking fool!  Every time I think I have my life figured out, and I have things under control - something changes!  I don't like change... I like to have the same food every year at Christmas dinner, I like sit at the same seats at the dinner table, and yes - I like tradition!  With these things, you always know what is going to happen.  Well, in my life lately, I have no idea what is happening!  I am trying to enjoy the fact that sometimes the best things happen, when you are least expecting them.  I realize that everything you do in life is a risk, and sometime, you just have to figure out if the risk is worth the possible reward.  That sometimes, God has a better plan for you, than you have for yourself. I am trying to sit still and listen to what He has to say.

At the end of the day, when I look at my life - I have 3 amazing kids, a fabulous group of women who surround me with love and the best group of friends anyone could ask for.  Yes... I am truly blessed!

Expectations

I'm sitting here and for the first time I have so many things on my mind, I'm not even sure where to start.  In the past 6 months, I have made some major decisions in my life.  I decided to go back to school full-time (not sure what I was thinking), I have broken up with the person who I thought was "the one", and I have learned a lot about myself and what I expect of other people.  You see... I do not expect a lot from anyone - I expect for people to treat each other with respect, I expect for you to be kind and above all else, I expect people to be honest.  I never knew that those three little things could be so hard!   I have also discovered in the last six months, that the people who you thought you would never depend on, are the very ones who will never disappoint and let you down.  They are the ones who turn into your best friends and they are the ones who are quick to provide a reality check when needed.